I have a theory that I just came up with but haven't been able to have it examined thoroughly, and empirically. So all criticism and discussions around it is welcome.

What if madonna-whore complex is just a complex between our civilized self and primal desires? Regardless of gender at least as a guy myself if there’s someone I really don’t like and it has become necessary to deal with him, I get the urge to punch him really hard or in any way I can see the blood coming out of his body. Though at the same time the civilized self in me tells me not to. You can kinda remember how as kids we often tend to resolve matters by fists, but we are taught we need to resolve conflicts in civilized manners as we grow up.

Following this you can kinda see some people really use this to their advantage to do terrible stuff. I’m not the most devout Christian by any means nor do I have mastery in Theology — the 7 cardinal sins are there for a reason, most notably — greed, lust and gluttony. We obvious need to acknowledge the animalistic side of us while striving to maintain a civil character. At least that’s what civilized people do. Just take a look at those barely literate and severely under-educated communities, within or outside the west.

Choosing to accept your partner's promiscuous past in this regard kinda resembles your opinions on second chances for criminals.

This is not even an implication of the equivalence of promiscuity and criminality. In this clown world where a first time offender who made a website that happened to become the central hub for illicit substance transactions and received TWO lifetime sentences plus 40 years as a first time offender for NON violent crimes while rapists and pedophiles get merely a fraction of that, there’s no point arguing what’s right and wrong. Do whatever you want, even if it harms someone. It’s a free world.

There are people who keep doing terrible stuff despite constantly telling everyone they need to strive for the light and make sure everyone knows how holy and righteous they are, and of course there are people who were misguided or lacked guidance in their formative years who went on to become individuals of great character and achievements.

Cliché enough, there is no light without dark. If you are half sane you won’t believe there’s no dark side to Patrick Bateman, no contact with the dark in the life of the morning routine guy, ripped like a sculpted figure from the mountain of Olympus, waking up at 3am and doing everything perfectly our parents would dream of us doing for years until we grew up. That’s why these guys are so meme-able. So serious as if they would die if they woke up an hour late and forgot to do their skincare routine. Good work buddy, but cmon. It’s simply not possible. Saints don’t exist. Especially when your town people no longer public shame sinful behaviors.

The questions in the center remain. How much of their dark side are you willing to accept? Would you accept the price of their past as the direct results of their dark side? Are you satisfied how they are dealing with it?

By extension and on a greater dimension, civilizations were built on individuals exercising their liberty without harming others, through either of self control, societal pressure or legal instruments while diverging bulk of this primal energy into building better and longer lasting legal/political/economical and technological devices and infrastructures that serve for future generations. Older trees must thrive to cast shades upon which younglings grow and thrive.

The primal desires never disappeared, it's just been used productively to build stuff rather than burning things down.

In whatever way and however much you “yolo”, please leave something in the world for the amount you have taken from it. A book, a film, a company, an invention, a family, some children, some ever lasting memories in your past partners. Leave something behind.

And for the love of god, please do not have children until you are absolutely willing to die to give them everything you can if it comes to it. You kids do not need to see a random guy brought into your house every now and then and you smoking on the couch asking your 6 year old to do the dishes and laundry. Every child deserves the greatest parents. Not every parent deserves a child.

The key here is, how much will you give for the amount in the world you take? How much are you going to leave behind? Or are you just going to leave a mess for your future generations to clean up?

Till next time,

Preston.

Yes certain things are universal — athleticism, height, good character, fashion, healthy lifestyle, etc.

In Eastern Europe, if you are just a chill young dude of a normal height, add or take a bit from the average height, half skinny with decent hygiene, play a sport and have a few close friends, you have equal chances of having a smoking hot girlfriend of your age as the mid 30s businessman who drives a porsche, no matter if they're 6'5 or 5'6; or as the late 20s elf looking aspiring male models who are obsessed with their routines

People are different, some 5'8 guys have a brother who's 6'1 from the same parents, some guys are 6' but their torso is so long it looks like they are 5'8 from photos no matter how you anglemaxx it, some guys are naturally more emotionally intelligent, some guys are more mathematically autistic, some guy have sharp jaws others have square jaws, some are just naturally pale as shit while others are naturally tan, some get like half a face of acnes from eating like a bag of fries while others eat burgers every day for a week and their skin doesn't see a bump

The point is, you need to radiate positive energy. Your cards have been dealt to you. If you are a fish, don't try to become a bird because the ideal of a bird is so "aristocratic" and "chad like" to you; conversely, judging others like this also says things about you.

All that cartoonish descriptions of chad vs average men from closeted homosexuals and the sexually and romantically frustrated late 20s early 30s something women is literally too funny in contrast.

Too often I see shockingly beautiful and angelic (not hot, notice the wording) 19 year old girls strolling down Knez Mihailova in downtown Belgrade with some broke dork of average height who they probably met in class in university, and some businessman in their mercedes gle with their late 20s looking girl with fillers everywhere on her face, highlighted fake blonde hair and plastic breasts sticking out in her low cut dress, looking very emotionless and bored, I could not even be sure if that’s because of all the botox or she’s just an escort.

What do you think that means?

That's how you know someone has never had a real friend and experienced real connections. If you fuck with each other then you fuck with each other, platonic or not, simple as that.

In the post pandemic America, it seems like a lot of people forgot what is normal and what it means to be normal. You need to be some sort of startup founder at 16 years old and raise 5 million USD minimum from investors to flex on your fellow Asians who base their whole human worth on how successful they are; the average height is no longer the average height — you are average and only acceptable at 15th percentile; the “actual” and “acceptable” average income for her to settle down with you is the 10th percentile in the labour force; you need to be the most aryan nordic white because it is aristocratic and everyone else is dirty filthy untouchable mud blood — the closer your genetic lineage is to northern europeans the more aristocratic you are; the only people worth a second of her attention is famous musicians, D1 athletes and generic successful businessmen, the rest feels like they have some genetic flaw that you’d rather see them die or because she does not see any value she could extract.

To them it’s all about money, power and fame. Nothing else is worth pursuing in America. They lost they only real connection they’ve ever had with a boy in their life when they lost contact with the boy they lost their innocence to; or worse, they lost all their faith in men way younger because of their incompetent, uninspiring, weak and timid father or some other male family members.

So they start their little schemes, “fuck real love, what can I get out of talking to a man from now on?” Then there you have their little increasingly long lists of requirements.

As long as Americans idolize genius tech billionaires, tech founders, elite athletes, mega famous musicians or anyone in the top 1% in their realm, the list will stay around. Until then the real average will always be perceived subpar.

On a greater scale you call it pushing the economy forward by socially engineering the perception of average to move up year by year — yeah probably because making guys spend an increasingly unhealthy amount of time to look like an over-groomed homosexual help promote sales in cosmetics, supplements and fitness industry.

I remember something that resonated with me a lot when I first read it, unsurprisingly from Oscar Wilde,

It’s up to you to decide how much of working is to respect your past self and become better everyday, and how much is to mog other guys and ask her to pick you. Notice how funny when I worded it out. Lmao

If you are already playing a sport, doing basic grooming that takes no longer than 30 minutes a day, able to make conversations with anyone you want, and generally a chill dude of average height and normal bmi — congrats, you already mog the majority of dudes your age. Whoever that judge and look down upon you have some issues themselves. A lot of them are the equivalent of making a teacher’s salary while wanting a Mercedes c class and thinking that her husband’s Toyota pickup truck is embarrassing.

Till next time,

Preston

I started this train of thought on subscriptions. I don’t care whatever else you may have read about on this topic or how similar ideas have been paraphrased times and times to the degree of cliches, here goes mine.

I’m a zoomer studying a cs-related major in North America hoping and actively preparing myself to craft a career out of writing quality code to solve problems that matter, like many of you. I pay for a lot of subscriptions — from YouTube Premium, Snapchat Plus, Twitter Verified to encrypted email, cloud storage and VPN services to three different LLM models plus a few API’s billed by usage for my side projects, excluding the adobe cloud suite that I used to pay for until I recently invested upfront for Affinity Photos and Designer. From a five minute scroll of startup/indie tech twitter, specifically the #build_in_public community, I was recommended at least 20 different indie devs trying to build some sort of tools for different markets, all subscription based, from 20 bucks a month to 50 bucks or potentially higher, all in contrast to many excellent high quality small utility tools that are not only open source but also free for regular users, quietly sitting to be discovered by more solely from word of mouth.

Man you can count on one hand the services/products that lets you pay upfront for a lifetime license — idc how much it costs but as long as it’s worth it plz just let me buy it once and for all — you can clearly see when the services let you pay one time upfront, they are marketing to this specific group of potential users.

Then I thought about consumer debts/loans, state taxes, land ownership and the patriarch’s obsession with women’s chastity — all a form of power and control in one way or another.

Earlier today there was something funny on Twitter — Doordash announced a deal with Klarna that allows users to pay for food deliveries in install payments

Clearly there seems to be a pretty huge accumulation of food delivery debts among some american consumers. Imagine not even owning your food lmao.

When no one owns anyone and no one owns anything beyond a few necessities that you paid off with your own cash/debit card to allow you to survive with dignity, they are not free.

Land of the free and home of the brave is only so for those operating within a specified realm unable to interfere those live outside of it. And whoever operate outside of it that define and enforce the walls, own and control those that live within it. And the irony is these walls that would contribute to the loss of ownership for those within it are more often than you think indirectly self imposed. Some of you just let it happen and call it a better future for all. Smh.

If you really go down the rabbit hole, it goes as far back as the transition into the neolithic and the start of the agriculture revolution, marking the start of the private ownership first time ever in history. But roughly you can say it really started when they took your land during the enclosure movements through laws and by force, forcing the less fortunate into densely populated compounds to sell their labour for a living. It wasn’t very nice. But then they put on a nicer face for the more gullible

Hey! It’s not 1950s anymore and women can vote, open their own bank accounts and earn their own money now and Dr Some-super-weird-name invented some magic pill so no worrying if you’d get pregnant plus how much nicer society would be if people regardless of color, gender and backgrounds are treated equally altogether? No need to worry who’s your daddy anymore. The problem is who’s NOT your daddy. Ha! Soon all couples will be required to genetic edit their babies and god knows when direct parenting of your biological children will be outlawed. No need to care about who is whose kid anymore.

Hey! Look we give you 500 bucks of sign up bonuses plus 3.5% cashbacks on groceries and gas with select partners and exclusive access to airport lounges to look down upon your fellow poor people who aren’t using the lounges plus no annual fees at only 19.99% APR, which only requires you to get a nine digit number by signing on some paper with some gibberish that basically says from now on we will be keeping an eye on you and your money and if there’s a single thing we see that we don’t like, which we will never tell you btw, you’re screwed! Congrats!

Hey! Free email service and 2GB of free storage in 2004! Why not? Look! Every one of your friends in college is signing up for this online photo books of your fellow schoolmates where you can shoot them a dm and hey maybe find your next love on it, and it’s free! Who would’ve thought someone was keeping an eye on the 2am drunk text you sent to your fwb on a random Thursday morning which would lead to a local therapist ad being shown to you two days later? And hey, 9.99 dollars a months for unlimited streaming of millions of songs? Bye bye to 0.99 a single that allows you to own it forever!

They think to themselves - you will own nothing and you will be happy.

It’s kinda funny when I was like 7 years old I thought that the concepts of loans and debts were so stupid and completely didn’t make any sense, as in, when you need money to buy something why don’t you just go make more money and come back to buy what you need?

With all that said, by this logic, private ownership caused basically all wars and civil unrest. Perhaps at this point both you and me have realized I might have just paraphrased our dear Carl Marx’ little manifesto. And we all know the rest of that story.

Or did it? Was it really private ownership the real culprit? Of everything? It seems problem only exists when ownership is taken from you. We were all pretty happy living on our little own lands, farming our own grains, veggies and livestocks, a wife from a town thirty five furlongs up the river whom you met from your local church during lent and a few perfectly healthy children playing in the rye fields, whose teeth were probably just a little too yellow by modern standards.

A lot of normal folks just simply don’t care, goes about their business and goes on complaining about shit and asks why shit don’t work and just moves on, if said shit doesn’t matter enough to them, until it does. I doubt they are even self aware at this point. A smaller part of the population who happens to be on the more neurotic, sensitive side often will end up going down one of these two paths. Once in a while you will come across some nihilist by which you can easily tell because of their choices of attire, accessories and social media profile. They tell you that we are all gonna die. All will turn to dust. And more often than not they often reek of marijuana. All that bullshit that makes you look at them and go like, damn no wonder they live like this. That was a little extreme. More often than you think these people are a bit self contradictory in the sense that they also participate in some causes they think are noble, not entirely self aware as well. Which leads to the second paths they tend to take. These are in my opinion the most wholesome people to spend time with.

They know all life end equally. They know people get frustrated searching and trying to give meaning to their existence yet people keep going. They’ve actually accepted it. You have to sort of discover them solely by chance because on the surface they are just the calmest, chillest and most normal dude who are just excellent and fast at making connections with new people.

So what?

Why is this important? It’s a call to action. Without a call to action it would make the title of this post too perfect. Ok, and what? lmao. I just thought it was such a funny name to a series of blogs

People of similar life experiences should be more cautious giving and taking advice. I never take advice from someone whose whole story I don’t know, someone who didn’t/ isn’t living the life I want or someone who isn’t the person I want to become. Neither should you. You don’t know my whole story obviously. The wisest people I know — you just hang out with them and you yap about your day and they tell you their stories. So this is me leaving you with a thought without actually telling you to do something.

You being cynical and all does no help but harm to your own mind. You are allowed to laugh the crazy clown shit and excuse yourself that happens in your life because it is kind of a clown world we are living in. No need to get mad at anyone. Just poke fun of it. And you will one day find yourself staring into the abyss and just giggle and laugh.

The more they tell you that you are free to do anything, the more you have to enforce your boundaries. How much time you will allow yourself for brainrot shitpost videos until you lock up the app for the rest of the day from a time management app. How much money you spend on useless shit which by the lack of it only costs you maybe 15-20 minutes of inconvenience and you will never use again. How much you are going to spend on takeouts because you don’t feel like cooking. How many disrespectful behaviors and acts from your girl that you will tolerate because she thinks she is being empowered by doing all this and somehow she is better than you because first she is a girl, and she is half decently pretty, plus some 49 year old gentleman who’s probably your friends dad asked for her number and said he liked her outfit today on her way to classes.

It’s only a matter of mediation between you are having fun and the fun is having you.

Be the owner, not the owned.

Ciao

Preston

Fuck being a philosopher

Fuck anyone under the age of 30 larping on here

I’ll be a philopher when i’m 35

G’day

Ciao